Arts of the A.M.

the various mediums of Alanis de Miranda

When Everybody Hates You

All this time
So very long ago
It started here and hasn't moved
All that change going back n forth
Till finally it's what you see
All these eyes
Will progress ever be
They're watching and reminding me

We love these friends
Who lost their glow of hope
They're fair but they no longer care
We love these strangers
Who never liked our clothes
Spread it around now everyone knows

We love small minds
Let's make them all believe
that the world believes that we'll be king

How time flies
When Everyone hates you
How time flies
When Everyone hates it
I don't think I'll make it
When Everyones taken all they can

They drown me out

Lets Keep this Journal Always

I wrote all of the stories
I took you straight to hell and back without the prizes
But when everything is going my way I find it hard

I need a bit of reason
I need something to hold on to that keeps me moving
But through all the words of discontent
I find it hard

I just had a revelation
Another's times remind me of my own and keeps me wanting
Let's keep this journal always
Because without, I find it hard

I'll Understand if You Say to Go

Take dreams in stride like we've always done.
For fees for pride
Preparing wars with guns
Lest you be tride
Forced away and shunned for the will of a man
And take the time to understand the break in the fabric that I am
I failed
I know
So I'll understand if you say to go

Oh, the end
I'll understand

Heed the signs exposed
laying into the incline
Now while no one knows
A war won without trying
Oblivious to the pose of the paralyzing fine
For the will of a man
And take the time to understand the break in the fabric that I am
I failed
I know
So I'll understand if you say to go

Oh the end
I'll understand

Hey Lana

Hey Lana don't you know me yet
Don't you listen to all who you respect

Without hearing my side you only hear half truths and half lies
I'm a half maniac and a half prize
In your eyes

Hey Lana don't you know me yet
Do you remember my good heart or did you forget

Don't listen to her lies
She's just trying to save herself and I don't blame her

She's just trying to make you all happy
Everyone but me

Hey Lana don't you know me yet
Don't bother to ask me
Don't you break a sweat

Hey Lana don't you know me yet
Jesus told you everything without getting your feet wet

And I'll take it all
All the blame again
And I'll shake it off
Just like I've always done
And I'll stay the same
I've not learned anything
A monster playing good
Hated and misunderstood

I'm a monster
Hated and misunderstood

I Promised I Could Survive

Just outside these walls I hear a sound that draws me out
Caught by my surprise
An innocence that musters doubt
Oh my aching eyes
If I could only understand
I'd stop it in its tracks and rush back to where I first began

No I can't
but I'll die if I don't
I promised I could survive all alone

With dignity and poise I'll crush the things I've crushed before
It digs in me
That voice
I pray my name be said once more
I'm bound without a choice
I'd love to live to make her laugh again
Oh this little girl
If there was ever one that could spoil the end 

I'm Broke and Damned

I broke this common trust of man to man.
I wrote ourselves into this desperate plan
I asked, to redirect my easy heart that's worn with age
I never thought she'd ever read me words from my own page

She pulls those words right from my cornered bones
I ride on the possibles and loose all I've owned

Then she reduced my ache into wind instead
I'll take me heart back
Friend I regret all that I said
I'm all exposed
Somehow I'm still alone

Take all that you can
Feed your greedy hands
I'm broke and damned

I rested on the softness of her voice
Assured I lye between her truth and choice 

Im Still Here

And all agree I should have known
But knowing is not enough to reject her with words of stone
Once again my trust is mocked
I'm left alone with a forsaken groan

I'm still here though I felt you left me lone

Where are those words of joy and strength
I can not find them in this blood or in this home
Let me get my things and go
I'll take a strangers hand and reap love I've never sown

I'm still here though I felt you left me lone

I told you that I'd never leave
Feelings are not enough to roam
I'll hold true to what I know
A bride is never left alone

I'm still here though I felt you left me lone

You Knew It All Along

You don't have to try if you don't want to.
You don't have to grow if you don't want to.
And You knew it all along

We don't have to die if you don't want to
You don't have to go if you don't to
And you knew it all along

She breaks you down

She don't have to lie if she don't want to
They don't have to know if she don't want them to
And she knew it all along

And she breaks us down

And you knew it all
And she knew it all
And they knew it all
And we knew it all along